Rebecca De La Torre, 1-15-13, 10.46 PM

Sometimes I wonder what really matters in life. What are we striving for? What’s the point?

I find myself often wanting to do something that matters. I never really wanted to be a star, but I always did want to connect with people with my music. And the best thing in the world is going to a gig and having people request my original songs. I love that. I know that they can relate to my art on whatever level and it is very gratifying.

As I reflect on this past year, I’ve spent a lot of time working with a lyricist on a songwriting project that culminated in a trip to Nashville in December. In that trip, all the songs were produced and recorded by top musicians. I just got the final master yesterday and I have listened to most of it. It sounds great, but has much more of a country sound than I originally envisioned.

I’m not sure what’s happening on the remainder of the project. Sometimes I feel more like a hired musician than a real songwriting partner. So if I look at it that way, it’s easier to disconnect and not get upset when I don’t like the way something is going. Supposedly that’s how it goes when dealing with big record companies (or in this case, an affluent executive producer/lyricist).